the plan has gone arigh

 Sometimes you have to keep telling yourself that there is a plan. And when I say there is a plan, I don't mean the plan I've come up with....

• the plan for a relaxing summer
• the plan for selling my house and finding a place to live
• the plan for vacation
• the plan for birthday parties
• the plan for the upcoming school year
• new house plans
• and the list goes on...

 My plans mean nothing. God is in control of the plan.  Deep in my heart, I know this. Then something happens... something exciting or problematic and I go into survival mode. You know, that mode where you rack your brain for plan B, C, and D. The plan that you've made up to get out of that situation. I've always thought of it as flexibility, but it's not flexibility. It's fear. My backup plan is me not trusting God's plan. And, we all know, He has a plan.

So, this is me- telling y'all I am going to stop coming up with my plan... and TRUST His plan!

That doesn't mean that I can't dream and follow the plan to make my dreams come true. So, I do have some dreams...

 Dream #1: Focus on the Family
* This is kind of more of a goal than a dream. I think sometimes I get sidetracked by life.. school life, friend life, adult life-- those things can sometimes exclude family. I want to make sure my kids have the memories of childhood and the feelings of a connected family as they grow. I want my husband to always feel supported by me. I think this is a daily goal I have to work towards.

Dream #2: Build my dream home
*This is my current dream that I am hoping to fulfill. I was on track to do so... until that bump in the road came today. We sold our house in April (yes, you are reading that right, APRIL!). We had a long contract because of the buyer's loan. It was suppose to close last Monday. It got postponed to last Friday. Then it got postponed to Wednesday. Then today, I got the call that now... we don't know when it is happening. The FEAR kicked in. Immediately, I am scared out of my pants. Last week (since we thought we were closing), we moved into an apartment because we are going to build a house. We can't make any final decisions with the builder until our house has closed. My anxieties are getting the best of me. So... I hope in the next week or two I can blog about this dream again. And share all my home pins. And be really excited about this dream.

Dream #3: Become a Doctor!
*This is one dream God has put on my heart. It wasn't something I had really thought about until this past year... and now... it's happening. Beginning in August, I am starting a doctoral program at Lipscomb University. I am so excited about it, and nervous, but more excited than nervous! One day you'll be able to call me Dr. Davis!

Right now, that's what I've got. Just like your daily/weekly/monthly goals/dreams these things change and adapt because the plan changes. Put your trust in Him... God will not disappoint. A few thoughts I will leave you with today...